Then and Now

Then...
Then did I have unburdened eyes,
But fortunately no burden of teary lies .
Then did I have arms for the warmest hugs
But not as long to cover the girth of mums' waist line.
Then did I have innocent feelings but no words to say,
Then did I have a fast healing power,
But not a wound as big as today!
Now...
Ruthless lies try to make way through these wide eyes today
But these already have reality of thought piling up day by day!
And so they overflow each time an adversity they face!
Today my arms are long enough,
But I no longer have mum's waist to press!
Because now we are miles apart due to my study quest!
Today I have the words but none of them concrete enough to express...
Words... that can mend the breaking stress!
Distances between my heart and my mind have now become even great,
What the heart says the mind no longer resonates!
And so unhealed lie the wounds of today!
Many controversies of time the time has brought to me!
But time itself brings reasons for us...
Reasons to  overlook these and live a life happily! 

When...

When standing alone in the beach did not seem lonely,
When salty water did not mean tears only
When worries, fears and solitude were lost in some isolated land,
That is where my childhood stands
Eternal in my mind
Instilled in my soul
Hidden under the now made up faces
Veiled under His tough plans!

Then when my arms were not even long enough to clutch mum’s waist,
And her half girth hug did soothe my hearts haste.
When the softest out of the hard beds to me did mum provide
That is where my childhood does hide
Eternal in my mind
Instilled in my soul
Waiting for that very feeling of her being around
Picking up piles of smiles from innocent whiles!

When words did not cut the soul,
When burning eyes did not turn down efforts
When people all around were life size dolls
But hearts were no playthings at all
That is where my childhood freely swung
Eternal in my mind
Instilled in my soul
Coffined under the aspirations of a smooth flight into this world!